So whatever this thing that God is doing with my soul is much bigger than I thought. In fact much bigger than I can handle. I completely lost the plot in the last seven days. Losing all sense of who God is and who I am. Fortunately the people that I turned to were very gentle with me. They understood what I was trying to explain, they listened and they prayed and they enabled me to see the hope I so desperately needed. They checked the decisions I made with an objectivity I didn't have and agreed with them. They say that I am very definitely still listening to God, and still hearing God. But... what I'm hearing is being distorted by too many things happening all at the same time, and I need to clear some space to be able to hear God clearly again and to work with him. I've spent more of this weekend in tears than not in tears. Tears pouring down my face during the service this morning. Some difficult decisions made. Back to work tomorrow, and more difficult conversations. But there is a sense of rightness about the decisions made.
I have moved to a different place and it is not where I expected to be.
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